Living with Anxiety, One Day at a Time… As far back in my childhood as I can remember, I never recall suffering any anxiety, but in May of 2004, something came over me while taking my first plane ride to Maui, Hawaii with my sister-in-law and mother-in-law. I will admit, I was definitely nervous about the plane ride, but little did I know, that this trip would trigger my first experience with anxiety and panic attacks.
The first three days of our 14 day trip were the hardest. I went to the clinic a few times, had doctors tell me they couldn’t find anything wrong, and that it was most likely just jetlag. I think a huge trigger for my anxiety was that my son was 9 months old at the time, and it was my first real experience away from him. My mind was playing the “what if” tricks on me. What if the plane crashes? What if something happens to me and I never see him again? What if something happens to him? Now don’t get me wrong, I KNOW he was in great hands with my mother and grandmother, but as a young mom, all I could think about was my child.
Reverting back to my childhood, maybe I did have something wrong with me that just hadn’t come out yet. I was extremely introverted, which I still am to this day. I came from divorced parents, one of which is always bad-mouthing the other which definitely didn’t help me. If not in school, at my part-time job, or playing with the neighbor kids, I spent my days in my bedroom with the door shut just to have a quiet space. These days, I’ve learned to open up a bit more, but I still suffer with anxiety issues each and every day. My mind is constantly racing with what I didn’t get done, or what I need to get down the following day.
Medicate? Say what? I strongly dislike medicine. It takes a LOT for me to take a simple tylenol when I have a headache, so I was going to do everything in my power not to be medicated. The doctor did try me on medications like Lexapro, and a couple others, but in the end, my hatred of medication won, and I decided to look for more natural ways. I started working out, drinking calming teas, and trying to get out of the house more to take my mind off of everything I was feeling.
Ideas that worked for me…
-Having someone that relates to my anxiety issues
Here I am, years later, still suffering from anxiety, but now I know (most of the time) how to manage it. I’ve also had the opportunity to help others that deal with anxiety by speaking of my experiences. It’s not something that just goes away, but something you learn to control. It DOES get better. At least, it has for me.
Do you suffer from anxiety and depression? Feel free to comment or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you want to share your experience.
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